En Busca de Santos

For some odd reason, I had the urge to search for movies of "El Santo", the famous Mexican Wrestler. There was some reason to it, but my search was fueled by an uncommon sort of need to connect to someone I don't know. Maybe it was in part to prove that there are many Santos movies in south Texas, that in Austin there are some things which cannot be bought.
The background to the story begins when I went to the "Half-Price" bookstore, and bought a book about old Mexican Posters. The cashier was nice and seemed interested, so he mentioned how he has been searching for Santos movies. That was enough to entice me on this small search.
I have to admit I was a bit disappointed at the results. I went through three blockbusters and found nothing, eventually I went to Hastings, which I knew I should have gone to first, and found one Santos movie.
Now, I expect to burn it and send it to this random guy I don't know. I don't need a thank you or anything, I just need to feel accomplished in some weird task that I set on my own.
I thought a lot about the movies that I saw though, looking through the Mexican movies...most of them were of chistes or narco movies. I hardly saw any serious film in there...not saying the rest wasn't fun, but few of the films could be considered extraordinary. And I remember thinking to when I saw the Santo movies. But I can't be sure if I saw entire movies or just clips. I'm sad because I don't know just how much I am influenced by my youth. Sometimes I wish to think that being eccentric is due to things I observed from my father or mother, but honestly, I don't know.
So that was my small quest. I found "Santos".

Alcoholic

When I drink in the middle
of the week,
I am alcoholic
toxic liquor
and soda
spitting words
come from your mouth
and simmer my skin.

Can alcoholics love
and stop drinking
for seven days?

Can alcoholics hold
a job?

can they be happy?

Return Trip

After taking my lil brother and nephew on a college tour, I am extremely tired and maybe humbled and more confident. I know, it doesn't make sense, but give me a chance to explain. I think I have become too comfortable in south Texas that I don't realize "I" am not the majority. Turns out I can still feel uncomfortable in certain parts of Texas. I almost felt ashamed.
On another note, I have gained a bit more pride for the campuses in the RGV. I can't say that UTPA doesn't try to do well or doesn't have good staff. Unfortunately, each campus will have it's own problems, like inexperienced staff and bad architecture. However, after visiting three campuses, I still think UTB is up there in aesthetics. The border wall may not help in that sense, but as a amateur comedian from the RGV once said, "Why can't we put up art on the wall?"
Anyways, just some random thoughts, and for those who actually care, I spent lots of money at the Half-Price Bookstore (in my case this means $100.00, yes, I'm cheap). Most were "Chicano", but i did find some good film and art books. I can't wait to go back and buy more books. I guess that's it, no random poetry for today. I submitted some poems before I left on the trip and hope at least one gets accepted. If none get accepted, I will laugh.

About time

Seriously, almost a month since I last wrote here? I guess it makes sense since that's about the time that I started class. That class has been incredible. I mean, I'm not well read in American poetry, and I'm less educated on Latin American poetry. It makes me want to try to recreate each of their methods but also further them. Even if I get a B (which I really hope I don't), I won't regret taking this course. I have been re-educated, and interested in taking more Span. courses, especially once I sat through lecture. Why didn't I know about this before, and why don't others know? Anyways, it has given me good ideas for writing poetry.
Otherwise, there is too much to say about this past month. I have been nutritionally deprived because of the course, ridiculous how I have to take replace class with lunch.


I have had a lot of ideas for writing, but haven't gone through with any. Run across some cool blogs, poem ideas, letters, testaments of will. There's still time.


I should just use this blog as a file for thoughts.


I also attended a Border Wall protest held at UT-Pan American, and decided to take photos...I should have walked.