To Do List

For some reason I have hesitated on my home "to do" list. It's not written but here are some which I can remember.

1. Fix Heat (this one I'm regretting right now as the weather is reaching the 50's)
2. Fix toilet from running
3. Fix washer
4. Fix water which somehow goes from kitchen sink to utility room
5. Repair roof

This has been my list for about the past year or so. Seems simple enough. I think I would be be better with the list if I knew how to fix any of these. Yes, I know, I'm being codo by not hiring someone to do this work for me. But in my younger years my dad never hired anyone. Maybe I feel I should be able to do the work myself, which takes forever. Sometimes I'm just lazy. I did finish one job: I was able to install some new lights.

I don't feel invested in the list. Right now I could be doing something towards the list and I'm watching The Benchwarmers which I'm starting to wonder how a movie about 3 adults playing against little league teams makes sense.

Por que no me siento vivo? Hace tres dias queria escribir algo como: 7 secretos en 7 dias solamente para decir algo que nunca puedo decir. Estoy feliz? Hay unos dias que si, pero en otros no. Aveces pienso que es depresion porque cambia como el vuelo de un cotorro. Creo que la lista le importa mas a mi pareja, pero no estoy seguro la manera que me afecta. Pero creo ya es suficiente sin hacer nada. En Enero comienzo con la lista pero esta vez llamandole a algien que sabe como reparar todas estas problemas. Y aver como la pareja reacciona. Si no es en manera feliz, pues no se.

Tal vez esta será mi primer secreto.